About

So this is me. Deirdre.

Why am I creating a blog? Well in part as a modern version of a diary. I hate to write long-hand, but I love to type, so perhaps I’ll actually keep this up. also I need a diary. I need some way to come back a year from now and check to see if I’m still as messed up as I am today!

I’m a wife, a daughter, a choir member, a pet owner, a sister, a friend, an office worker a Christian, a cook, an artist, an avid reader, a re-enactor, an aunt. But coloring it all is one inescapable fact.

I’m. Not. A. Mommy.

We’ve tried everything medical that we were willing to go through and had no success. Unless you count the two perfect little embryos that made it to 22 days before failing to “stick”

So now we are waiting to adopt……………….

Like so many infertile women, it’s not ALL I’m about, but it’s a huge part of my consciousness. There’s never a moment where it’s not there, just under the surface, waiting to overwhelm me again. So while this blog won’t always be about infertility and my subsequent emotional struggles, the subject will come up a lot.

Welcome to my blog. Enjoy.

Deirdre

*******UPDATE *******

We are “pregnant on paper” which means we have been matched, we’ve spoken to the couple and we now have only to wait and pray for a healthy birth sometime in October/November

*******UPDATE to the UPDATE********

We have terminated our relationship to the couple. They have lied about numerous things and we are back to waiting for a new match.

********UPDATE TO THE UPDATE OF THE UPDATE…******

We have been matched again.  Steve and Mel are the birth family and we are all very excited.  She is due Sept 25, so pray that she goes to term.