sunday roast is in the oven

Acts 16: 22 – 26
22The crowd joined in the attack against Paul and Silas, and the magistrates ordered them to be stripped and beaten. 23After they had been severely flogged, they were thrown into prison, and the jailer was commanded to guard them carefully. 24Upon receiving such orders, he put them in the inner cell [...]

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what to say

Missy has asked for people to help her know what to say to an infertile couple.
This is hard.  I was one.  I was once one of those walking bundles of pain and anguish who wants to hold a child so badly that it colors everything.
I have friends who say that “the infertile woman inside your [...]

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what are the monsters under your bed ?

Under my bed? well right now there are lots of framed photos and unframed artwork. There is also a fairly well used heating pad and a stack of Chemical & Engineering News and Science magazines from last year that I still haven’t finished reading (the ones from this year are still in my [...]

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everybody grieves differently

This is one of those things that shouldn’t need to be said, but then again, maybe it does need to get said every once in a long while.
“everyone is different”
I really appreciated all the helpful, sweet, sensitive things that have been posted here in the last few days. The comfort you guys have [...]

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emotionally fragile today

no real reason I guess. Just in a weird frame of mind.
too much stuff in my head and heart. Nothing tragic, so don’t freak.
bad hair cut, not really “feelin’ the love” at work right now, just finished reading a very emotionally difficult story about a woman who carried her baby for quite a [...]

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Gods answers aren’t all on Google

“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know”

Jeremiah 33:3
My husband and I were listening to a CD this morning. I was a bit out of sorts (late night, post-choir-rehearsal dinner outing makes for a cranky me on Thursday mornings) and I just didn’t [...]

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a stab in the gut

okay, here we go again.
Yet another, unmarried lady in my office has just announced that she is pregnant.
I’ve lost track of how many that is now.
I’m not as upset by it this time. Because I have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be actually pregnant. I just want children.
Watching my [...]

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reaching out

Based on my Follow-up to Mother’s day post, a reader asked me this question.  I liked her question and the opportunity it gives me to share (because I believe this is a very common issue), so I’m turning it into a full post.
This is W’s question:
“I’ve been lurking here for a short time and I [...]

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how to like mother’s day…

…..even when you don’t have kids.
the cynical side of me wants to ask God, “hello? didn’t you know this holiday was coming up? you are omnipotent right?  It would have been so perfect to have that sweet little 9 month old adopted boy on my lap for mother’s day.  Couldn’t you have worked [...]

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the last page of the book

Ever been reading along in a book and gotten so frustrated with the struggles that the hero/heroine is going through that you feel an almost overwhelming desire to turn to the last page and see how it all turns out?
I guess that is kinda of how I’ve been feeling about my life and infertility. Please [...]

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