…..even when you don’t have kids.
the cynical side of me wants to ask God, “hello? didn’t you know this holiday was coming up? you are omnipotent right? It would have been so perfect to have that sweet little 9 month old adopted boy on my lap for mother’s day. Couldn’t you have worked out something by now?”
but here I sit. the Friday before “Mother’s Day” ….childless.
Yes, I know. Keep hoping. Trust God. They that wait upon the Lord, shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles…..yeh, I know.
I keep wondering if the renewing of strength is just a renewal so I can wait some more.
I’ve been doing really well recently. Christmas was an absolute disaster emotionally speaking. But since then I’ve been feeling very peaceful about the whole issue issue. I figure God will do what is right for us when He wants to. But I’m dreading Mother’s day. Kids everywhere. Mother’s glorified, my poor hubby trying to be sensitive and supportive, and then there’s me.. sitting there in the pew like a lump, feeling like I’ve failed. My sweet choir director even gave us the day off so we can sit with our families. Great. Wonderful. So now I don’t even have singing to keep my mind occupied. Yes, I’m feeling sorry for myself. Yes, I know it’s not attractive.
Is God holding off on giving me good news about a pending adoption because He wants me to learn to NOT let the random circumstances of a holiday get me down? This is a hallmark scam anyway, why should I let it affect me? why do we celebrate it in church? “Mother’s Day” has nothing to do with God, but thats a whoooole ‘nother post.
So here’s my key to enjoying Mother’s Day: claim GOD’s joy. A joy that can not be disturbed by external factors.
Anyone got any verse that I can claim to help me through the day?