If you have known me at all in the last 5 years you know that I identify as a Figure Skater.
I’m a mommy, and a wife and a Christian, but my major identifier has been “figure skater”
It’s different. It’s something you don’t run into very often. I skated as a kid for 8 years, took a 28 year break from the ice and I’ve been back in competition for 5 years now and it’s been great. When he heard my story, Scott Hamilton hugged me once and said “Welcome home!” He is right, I feel like the rink is home. All it takes is to walk in and breathe in the myriad scents of the ice and I feel better instantly.
Yes, that’s me. I’m rather proud of that spiral actually at age 45 (or 46, I forget when this was taken) decent height and form.
That all changed at the end of May, 2016.
We finally took a good hard look at the budget and realized something had to give. Ice skating is expensive so, skating, for both myself and my husband had to go. We let Ginny finish her semester and then she had to quit too. It was a very sad moment. Ginny has gotten a lot out of skating.
She has learned so much control, both of her emotions and of her body. People are constantly remarking on it. Seriously, strangers come up to us in a Starbucks and ask if she is in ballet or gymnastics because she is so poised. And frankly I enjoyed having all of us involved in skating.
It’s been two months now. I’ve had a chance to catch my breath and come out of the dumps about it and now I’m about to say something shocking…..
I don’t miss it.
I do miss the FEEL of skating. I miss the physical challenge.
I miss my friends (both locally and at the national level).
I ache for the feeling of flying across the ice, and Lord knows I miss performing ! Skating has awoken the utter HAM in me and I’ve got to find an outlet for that off-ice….
BUT, I don’t miss the space it was taking up in my life.
It was a HUGE drain.
- on my energy level
- on my schedule
- on my mental energy
- on my families schedule
- on our vacation time
- on my interactions with my family
The freedom to have an entire, uninterrupted weekend with Ginny & Martin is fantastic. It almost makes each and every weekend feel like a mini vacation. We get so much done! Playing, cleaning, laughing, eating, cooking, hanging out with the neighbors without having to watch the clock and go to bed at 8 p.m. There is also more space in my car! Three Zuca’s can take up a lot of space people !
The one who always had to go to bed early was me by the way. I had to get up at 4 a.m., so going to bed late was not an option.
but it is now!
There is so much free space, emotionaly, logistically and mentally. So, as much as I miss skating…..I’m actually okay with the net effect of walking away from it.
shocking, isn’t it?