My memory verse for these last two weeks of 2009 is this –
One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek Him in His temple.
Not a terribly Christmas-y verse is it?
But for me, right now…it works.
See my body has this horrendous habit of getting sick right around the holidays. Sometime in late November or early December I almost invariably come down with a cold, the cold sinks into my lungs and I spend the next two months hacking, sometimes losing my voice, but mostly sounding like I belong in a ward full of consumptives and tuberculosis patients.
This is very very frustrating for someone whose primary avenue of worship is, and has always been, song. Singing to God is my highest joy. Most years, when this sickness hits me I tend to get very angry and frustrated and depressed. This year, thanks to a song and this particular bible verse I’ve got a different outlook.
There is a song on Travis Cottrell’s album “Found” that is called “Rest” One of the verses goes like this –
Cure my heart of chasing whirlwinds
Of needing earth to quake
Of wrestling made up angels to keep myself awake
Oh bid my restless wandering heart
To find its pulse in you
In stillness know that you are God
You make me new.
I’ve spent a lot of time this season just letting various songs wash over me. There is a different message that can be found when I am not spending so much time physically participating but instead participating by listening. That seems like such a simple thing to say, but for me it has been a hard thing to learn. In years past my silence has been that of an actively frustrated bystander. Now I choose to deliberately immerse myself in the flood of words and music.
Its kinda of the difference between swimming with the current or being a leaf that the current is moving. The leaf puts in no effort, but is still moved.
I used to think that if I couldn’t participate in the music that I wouldn’t be moved by it. I am learning differently this year.